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November 05 The roomSmall Room (2 พ.ย. 50)
Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Walk into this cube; I thought it was too small. Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Look at the Ceiling; I thought it’s way too high.
Am Em And when I met you, I changed the way I see the world. Am F G Something inside me has changed.. has changed..
C Em I belong to you; I won’t live without you. F G I don’t want to get back to a small room alone again. C Em And no more scary high ceiling too. F G I want to stay here in this warm and cozy space that you’ve told me. C Em F I love you. You change the way I perceive the world G Cmaj7/Fmaj7/Cmaj7/Fmaj7/Cmaj7… and you bring my whole life back forever.
September 27 Way back onto trackWhen we run for something, we can never find it.
When we hide from something, we can never figure it out.
When we stop doing things, take a break, and relax, that something is searching for us.
It's just if we're ready enough to show up and fast enough to grab it.
What a wonderful world that makes things happen.
What a beautiful day to live.
What a meaningful thing to share.
I'm back on track. May 13 Milestones1981 - born
1984 - St'John kindergarten
1987 - St'John Elementary school
1993 - Surasakmontree High School
1998 - Chulalongkorn University
2002.05 - Undergraduate Graduation
2002.06 - Trip to the US
2002.08 - My first job at SMPC and PET
2002.12 - Start working for Shell
2003.01 - ASHRAE trip to Chicago, IL
2004.05 - Resign from Shell
2005.01 - Join Kiak's company
2005.04 - Freelance at P'Jack's firm
2005.08 - Start Fall 2005 at the University of Michigan
2005.12 - Trip to LA (khun Ya and R mouy)
2006.03 - Thainight 2006
2006.05 - Thainight 2007 starts + going back to Thailand
2006.08 - Back to the US
2006.08 - Marryland Trip
2006.11 - Cedarpoint
2006.12 - Road trip to the west
2007.01 - Thainight 2007
2007.02 - Peurto Rico trip
2007.04 - PA trip
2007.05 - Master's Graduation
2007.05 - LA Yosemite SF trip
2007.05.11 - Happy birthday to me
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What's next???
March 23 stuhmoo 2007Time flies so fast. There is some marked change in stuhmoo production. This year, 2007, we have a new sound card, monitor speakers, a PRS guitar, a Boogie amp, and a Pod effect. Since this is a marked development, I would love to embed it here in the space.
February 24 PonderingPeople are fragile. Because they are fragile, they need reasons. Such reasons that help them go through days. Such reasons that encourage them to move on another day. Sometimes, or I would say most of the times, those reasons may not be really reasonable, but socially acceptable.
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That's rediculous.
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Have no more to say... Recently, I feel like I lack of imagination. It's really hard to squeeze my thoughts out into words. Pathetic I am.
December 15 My DecemberIf I wouldn't have known music, I wouldn't have been myself today.
Music is just awesome!
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My December,
words and music by hmoo
In a long, long night; Eventhough there is no star, I'd love to dream of you.
In a long, long day; Even though there is no one, having you in my dream is my everything.
.... December 04 time to go homeIt's time to go home. You've been wandering way to far from your home. You've been through things not so many people would have. You've fought your own way. Maybe, it's time to reward yourself. Get back home, indulge yourself, and sleep well. Everyone has a place to go back. No matter what they are dogs or tigers, they return home one day. Just who do you think you are you don't want to go home? Could this possibly your time? Take a chance when you still have. It doesn't come to you everyday. Some day, it'll go and never come back again. At that time, how are you gonna do? Be proud of yourself that you could live your own way 'alone'? If this could really happen, who will be the ones to stand right beside you, and celebrate your success? ....
Well... It's been hours after I wrote the paragraph above. There've been a lot of things buried in it. But... time flies. I don't remember so many now. By the way, I've found a song which I think interesting. Even though it's not (quite) related to what I really want to implicitly include in here, I still have it down here anyway.
Hate me by Blue October
(Verse 1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space (Chorus) Hate me today. Hate me tomorrow. Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you. Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow. Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you. (Verse 2) I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with. The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again. In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate. You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind (Chorus) Hate me today. Hate me tomorrow. Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you. Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow. Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you. (Verse 3) And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made And like a baby boy I never was a man Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!" Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?" (Chorus) Hate me today. Hate me tomorrow. Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you. Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow. Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you. ...
Isn't it good though?
"Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you" November 29 Tomorrow'It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring when today doesn't really know... doesn't really know...'
- Part of All out of Love written by Air Supply -
Loveliness of music is sometimes you could interpret it the way you want. A lot of people appreciate the same song at the same time, but not in the same way. That's not only the beauty of music, but also of human mind. We exist because we're different. That's what our existance is. But why are people afraid of being themselves? It would be because they feel much more comfortable to stick together. Questions like 'who're going to join our trip?' are usually asked just when we're making up our mind even for a very simple trip. This would be a human nature. So, the quote about our existance could not be right since it's against our nature? The answer to this question is indefinite. It does depend. This kind of philosophical questions is not for answering, but for asking. It's good enough to stay concious and know uncertainty. We human can't have it all since we don't know what it is, can't pick choices since we don't really have choices, but we can believe the way we walk toward our tomorrow. That would be the only right we're granted as human. November 20 The factThere will be the light at the end of the tunnel. Always.
If you feel like your trust is useless, that means you don't trust enough. In other words, you don't trust your trust.
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Are you brave enough to truely trust something and truely believe in your trust? November 18 RecentlyRecently, several friends noted that I updated my blog more frequently. They said 'Are you okay, dude?' Surely, I said 'I am'. But that was quite a lie. I'd not been doing well for the last couple of weeks, so I somehow used this space to heal my mind, and it turned out to be a good way. My guitar also cured me warmly too. Eventually, however, we need to recover ourselves on our own anyway. No one and nothing can do the job.
Thinking about this, thinking about those who were before us, they faced a number of desperations, but still succeeded. Some of them are higher in hierarchy than us, some are superior than us, but then they were not able to manage to live without difficulty. Who are we then, to think we could go on with no problem? How arrogant we are to think that way. People are set to struggle. Even the ones that are better than us having hard times, we, the inferior, would expect them too. Simply the fact shows the light at the end of the tunnel. In the light, they say 'struggler, keep on struggling. Soon you'll find your way.'
PS. I think this is a more important question. Struggling is easy, keep on doing something is not that tough. But to believe in the coming result is even harder than that. Here's the question: Is "the way" going to be good to me?
PSS. At least, I've a chance to do my writing here, eventhough it's not academic. The two ladiesThe first one I've met her 13 years ago. She is now waiting for my return in Thailand. We have been through a lot of things together. For the other one, it's just for a year. She's now with me here in the US. We don't know each other much, but I trust her. Actaully, I trust them. I know they're always waiting for me everytime I lost. I know sometimes, during my hectic days, I leave them alone, but eventually I need to get back and embrace them tightly. I find it everytime I do I have left them for a while and I feel ashame. It's not fair at all for them to keep waiting while I'm wandering around. I'm sorry. I'm back. I'm here to serve you the best I can. I'll play you the songs we used to sing together. I'll play some new songs for you. All of these to return your time you've spent waiting, for everything you've done, and for tomorrow in that you make me believe.
My guitars...
I apologize I'm not the best player, but is this enough to be with me forever?
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People asked 'why do I love to put it this way?'
I replied 'this is becuase it is the way I love.' November 15 วันของใครจึงมีวันนี้ BlackHead
Intro: Cmaj7 Csus2 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Fsus2 F (4times) Cmaj7
Fmaj7 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Fsus2 F Cmaj7
ฟ้าคงดูเศร้าใจ หากไร้ซึ่งหมู่ดาวชิดใกล้
Fmaj7 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Fsus2 F
ดาวก็คงเหงาไป เพราะดาวต้องการมีฟ้าเคียงคู่
Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Fsus2 F
ผูกพัน
Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Fsus2 F Cmaj7
* เมื่อฉันยังมีแต่เธอ และเธอไม่เคยห่างฉันเช่นกัน
Fmaj7 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Fsus2 F Am
เมื่อใจเรารักกัน ก็คงไม่มีอะไร จะมา กั้นขวาง
D Am D G G/F C/E G G G/F C/E G
แค่ขอเพียงเข้าใจ ขอเพียงอภัยให้กันและกัน
C Em Am G
** มีใจดวงเดียว มีใจที่รักเพียงเธอผู้เดียว
F G7
มิเคยมอบไป ให้ใคร
C Em Am G F
มีดวงดารามีฟ้ามีแสง และมีเส้นทางให้มาพบเธอ
G7
ก็เพราะเธอ(ที่ให้ฉันมีวันนี้)
Instru: Cmaj7 Csus2 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Fsus2 F (4times)
(ซ้ำ *,**,**)
Instru: Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Fsus2 F Cmaj7
Fmaj7 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Fsus2 F
ที่ให้ฉันมีเธอ แต่ในใจของเรารักกัน
Instru: Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Cmaj7 Fmaj7 Cmaj7ref: http://music.mercigod.com/play.php?songid=5540 November 13 closer to where?Pictures reflects thousand words. But that's not always. Sometimes, one word could mean everything.... I was wrong. It actaully is sometimes one voice could mean everything.
Huh! People love to hallucinate themselves by interpreting things to their favors. That's good; that's bad; that's right; that's wrong.. People are just going to believe in what they already believed. Ludicrously, me too. Is there anything bad in doing that?
Keep up on the belief. November 12 Note & Math 1.2Let us continue from the last time (Note & Math 1.1). We've talked about the consonant sounds. here's an example.
The above figure shows the combination of two pure-tone sound waves, one with A3 (220 Hz) frequency and the other with A4 (440 Hz) frequency. The frequencies imply that A3 will reach a period (cycle) every time A4 reaches 2 periods (cycles). (A3 repeats its shape one time while A4 repeats its shape two times) Hence, the combination is 'still' periodic and, therefore, consonant because it is 'still' periodic.
Remark:
1. Human minds love things that are periodic. Musical tones are pleasing because they're periodic, while noise is, most of the time, not quite.
2. The figure is created by the use of MATLAB. (Code may be requested.) November 10 Note & Math 1.1It's been a while. I'll be updating the series real soon. The thing I really want to remark here is that the reason people set the same name for certain notes that has a multiple frequencies of the others, e.g. A2 = 110, A3= 220, A4 = 440, and so on, is that they, when played simultaneously, sound very pleasing, or consonant.
see ya! November 09 sometimesSometimes I'm torn, sometimes I'm fixed.
just sometimes.
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And those times go.
And I move.
And things change.
And those times return.
And I'm torn sometimes,
And sometimes, i'm fixed.
And those times go.
And I move.
And thing change.
And...
...
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And I die.
And those times remain.
And things change.
And I die.
And it's just sometimes. October 30 Rhapsody... My time has come ...
... It sends shiver down my spine ...
... I sometimes wish I've never been born at all ...
... Any ways the wind blows ...
... Nothing really matters to me... to me... ...
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The thing I've seen is the thing I've never expected to happen.
Here it comes my friends.
It just occurs to me as it does to you.
It comes fast, furious, but it leaves with no trace.
It's destructive, and merciless.
Ever and never, I'll remember it as, I'm sure, you do.
Man, I've thought you're fool, but I am too.
Man, I now know what you're up to at those times.
Man, I'm sorry.
Sad but true.
I'm you.
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ever and ever and ever again
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It's just neverending October 27 Nash says...Nash says...
The reasons I am.
I say...
The reasons I become.
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Oct 27th, 2006
Now, I say change is the only certainty. October 09 listenShould I have listened to the whole world?
Would that turn out to be good to me?
I didn't however.
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Keep up to my faith.
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People said hope hurts no one; expectation does.
But how could we hope with no expectation?
That's rediculous.
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I'll be doing what I've done 'til my strength runs out.
At least, I don't let the world take over my pride, even if I fall.
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I'm tired.
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7 months to go. Wait for me, see what I become, feel what I feel, and as the time comes, I'll be back there again.
... August 23 How...How do people look toward tomorrow without a glance on today?
How could we build up tomorrow without today?
How would future be without present?
etc.
They are all the same question with different ways to say.
But we, or maybe just I, might not be able to balance our acts today in order to optimize tomorrow.
How could we know what is the best thing to do for today and tomorrow?
Question how again...
Sometimes, I don't think it's necessary to keep answering those questions, but that might be a good idea to keep on moving while remind ourselves that we still have these questions unanswered.
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